March 2012
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February 2012
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“There is a question I have been wanting to understand the answer to, but have...”
– Michelle Williams, about Heath Ledger
“I know now that we never get over great losses; we absorb them, and they carve...”
– Gail Caldwell
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People leave a lot of stuff when they die. They leave the world to you along with all the things you never wanted. You inherit photographs, pets, furniture. You inherit their hope for you, and grown-up things like bills, even if you paid them for years now. Your siblings aren’t kids anymore and you don’t have to help host Christmas if you don’t want to. They leave you bullsh-t and questions and...
January 2012
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Because when a parent dies, that’s all you’re left with — yourself. I don’t miss my dad, as much as the person I used to be when he was alive. I’ve become inherently selfish because he isn’t around to get the attention I’m pushing at him; it ricochets back, with nowhere to return but to myself. I miss having two-sided memories, and I am physically exhausted when I think about living the rest of...
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“It’s a little bit horrifying just how quickly everything can fall to crap....”
– Grey’s Anatomy
Dearest friend,
You have been dead for over three years now.
I can’t say it has been easy learning to live without you. But heading into year four, I have made real progress. I can talk about your death without crying or feeling frustrated. I can look people in the eye and tell them how you died. I’ve forgiven you, and myself. And now I finally feel like I can be honest with you. Okay, not...
“So that’s how we live our lives. No matter how deep and fatal the loss, no...”
– Haruki Murakami
“I wont go whistling by your grave
If you don’t go whistling in my mind
Welcome...”
– Dead Man’s Bones, Dead Hearts.
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i noticed how beautiful the sky was the other day and then i realized, it’s because you’re up there.
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“Just because they die, doesn’t mean they go away.”
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“Only because it’s still so raw and real. Soon it’ll just be a series...”
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The missing exclamation marks
You’re ok. Breathe. Just breathe. Open your eyes. Come back. It’s ok. It’s over now. You’re ok. Wake up. Please wake up. Don’t do this to me. Don’t do this to me. Don’t do this to me. I love you so fucking much. Come back.
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“When you lived here, it was a city. When you left, it became a town.”
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“And every single thing you ever did that bothered me, is every single thing I...”
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“All the space without you in it, is empty.”
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“When I look up at night, all the constellations look like you.”
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The Truth About Losing Someone
Truth — You realize that you may be the strongest person you know now. That you held it together against all of your own expectations, even handled it well, considering. You realize that the only event you ever feared has happened, and you knew the moment it happened. You felt it in your throat and gut, felt it pulling at your teeth, scratching your eyes. You went to bed that night and woke up...
“She killed herself, Leonard, threw in the fucking towel, and I feel sadness and...”
– James Frey My Friend Leonard